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Tales to tell.

Thursday, September 6, 2007

sigh. stolen time on the com again. rahh. this sucks.

briefly, this has been my life over the past week:

last friday: teacher's day celebration. ri's was quite cool and funny lol. very funny. the performances were okay. then went back to tao nan. their celebration wasn't as good, but i sat through it cos i didn't want to leave halfway. went for lunch at kfc. thought i saw rachel there. lol. nevermind. went to play badminton afterwards. for hours.

last saturday: cip. at pasir ris. we went to pick pong pongs. whee. well at least it was kinda fun, to be honest. was playing softball most of the time.

sunday: my parents went away! YES! til tuesday night. slackk. haha.

monday: went to play badminton with brandon, issac, bek, ying, sal and bea. on the pretext of a project meeting. lol.

tuesday: mov play rehearsal. went to school, walked on stage for 5 seconds and came off. like about 20 times. slack also. then my parents came back. ):

wednesday: MUGGING.

thursday: MUGGING.

sigh. how sad. i guess this how it's gonna be. ohyeah here's the poem i wrote, with kai's help, for the english competition.


Fairytale Heartbreak

When I looked into your eyes,
I saw an angel in disguise.
A soul sent down for me to find,
your name had always been in my mind.
A love not possible to compare,
a force that drove away all my despair.
For you I would give my all,
I would be there to catch you if you fall.
Be it rain or shine,
you would always be just mine.
A special place in my heart,
my feelings for you I would always guard.

And whenever I saw you smile,
the emotions in me ran wild.
Whenever I saw you cry,
my heart wrenched, as though I would die.
Each night as I laid in bed,
thoughts of you ran through my head.
I yearned for your hands to hold,
without you the world would have been so cold.
Staring up at the stars in the sky,
I had never even doubted why.
Because I knew, like that the sea is blue,
my love for you would be forever true.

Or so I had thought.
It was the story I had bought.
All this while, we were pretending,
but I knew this scene was impending.

That’s when it began to sink in.
I knew it, in my heart, deep within.
For some reason, I don’t know why,
I knew that we had to say goodbye.
Deep in my heart,
I don’t want us to part.
But however I know,
This is all just a facade, just a show.
I don’t want to face up to this,
To take us out of our complete bliss.
But I willed myself, preparing to speak.
From the corner of my eyes, tears began to leak.
But I know this sentence has to be said by me.
“Maybe we just weren’t meant to be.”


sigh. FUCK. I WANT TO GO OUT. I WANT THE COM. I WANT MY MP3!!! sigh it's been living hell without my k5. i hate this.

says i don't wanna be in love. not anymore.


fairytales are beautiful lies; [posted at 10:26 PM]
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Wednesday, August 29, 2007

a quick post before i'm chased off the com. i'm using the com cos of the renaissance writing thing. wrote a poem, haha got approval from kai. she said it's good. (: but i can't think of a damn title. rahh.

had a heated argument with bryan and royston over the mov play. mehh no point talking about it. and i was gonna write something nice about him in my dedications. royston also. zzz. maybe i should omit them... for now. we are a class after all.

2l. sigh. we had good times, bad times, fun times, shit times, getting screwed for loads of stuff, but we bonded as a class. 2l is made up of nice people man. (: really. even bryan... i suppose. shall do dedications if i have time. rahh.

somehow, however, life sucks. our class owns, no matter what other classes say about their own class, ours is the best. but every good thing has something bad as well. it's the opposite of a silver lining. like for our class for instance. sometimes, our class breaks up, argueing alot. i admit i'm one of them. sigh, like many others have said before me, we have less than 3 months as a class together. let's make this a memorable year. i'll tryy to be nice to everyone, and i mean everyone.

2l'07 - calvin, chu ming, bryan, hong en, royston, dewin, dexter, ernest(not forgetting him!), wilbert, kai wen, justin, huai jun, guan lin, shien hian, luke, matthew, ming foong, wilson, lingfei, richard, yu da, terence, yinan, zhi yuan, jiayu, zachary. we're a class. let's show it.

i promise to write dedications to all of em. they deserve it seriously, everyone of them.

back to how life sucks. every good thing, there's a bad. which is worse. like you. i thought you were everything. when you replied, i thought everything would be okay. i was ready. but you weren't. i don't know if i'm right, but i don't think you were serious at all. i hope you were. but i don't think so. i'll just hope and see. sigh.

i want to love you. i really do. but i don't know if i can anymore. i'm afraid to love.


fairytales are beautiful lies; [posted at 11:48 PM]
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Tuesday, August 28, 2007

lol. one week later during com lesson, cal posts again.

zzz. eventful week i guess. life's been hard without my mp3. now i realise how much i actually depend on music. my emotions, everything. sigh. bloody parents. my music has nothing much to do with my grades. rahh.

well interhouse. sigh tag rugby got 4th, only cos of goal diff. the sec 1s were good but not good enough. and i didn't do much. really should have done alot better. kinda wasted thoug. =/ nevermind. try harder next year. soccer! 2nd for cdiv, 1st for overall! lol we only had a full-power team on the last matchday against hullett, which we won 3-1! lol originally we lost, then we won. 2 goals lol. i found out i was the top scorer with 4 goals! (: nothing much lah actually. and alif is pro. he'll probably be one of the best sec 2s next year in soccer for buckley. (: damn. if we had fielded our best team against moor that day we would have won for sure. zzz. unlucky. we'll win next year though haha. hopefully. (:

blahh. hmm had alot of emo thoughts, but now's not the time. but my parents suck. seriously. i was so much happier even despite their bitching cos of you. (: sunday night, 26th auguest. i'll remember that forver. i was soo happy. cos of you. ___________. i know we'll never be together, but it's nice now, ignoring all the impossibilities and obstacles and consequesnces. cos it's all worth it. for you.


fairytales are beautiful lies; [posted at 11:19 AM]
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Tuesday, August 21, 2007

mm. haven't posted in a while. banned from com, except from school work. sigh. so i'm posting during com lesson.

well nothing much these few days, except intense argument and mugging and work and filing. there was interhouse soccer on friday, house carn 2, but i'll post more about that next time. there's gonna be a replay against hullett and morrison tomorrow, cos they used overaged players. but seeing as we beat morrison we probably won't play em again.

shall stop soon, lesson ending soon. there's interhouse tag rugby today as well, ought to win easily, unless they're tougher than expected.

nothing more to say. i guess it ends like this.


fairytales are beautiful lies; [posted at 10:32 AM]
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Thursday, August 16, 2007

well, haven't been posting cos of ccts, kinda semi-mugging. really need to pull up my hopeless gpa. rahh. >< anyway, yeah i hope the 'rumour thing' has blown over. once again, miin, and david, i'm really sorry. will promise to NEVER do it again. lol.

okay let's see. hmm. ccts were okay, really need to pull up my maths mark. hope to get a 70% for that test at least. max i can get is 25/30 though. =/ geog and history, roughly okay, don't expect to do very well, but shouldn't be that bad either.

rahhh. re presentation tomorrow! and our group is the first! ahhhhhhhhhhhh! was chionging just now. sigh.

and yes house carn 2 is tomorrow. or technically today. in less than 14 hours. sigh. alot of pressure. i want no less than a top 3 placing. hope to be able to achieve that, yupp.
[house carn 2: interhouse soccer: champions - BUCKLEY!] - mehh haha hopefully. (: if not you'll get a very angry post tomorrow. correction: if we don't get a top 3 position.

random comment. i'm currently addicted to good charlotte. (:

somehow, i don't know if i love you. my head says no, but my heart says yes.


fairytales are beautiful lies; [posted at 11:35 PM]
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Tuesday, August 14, 2007

okay. i'm in computer lesson now. this is urgent, so other stuff can wait.

i'm really sorry miin (and david) about the stupid rumour. they were NOT making out in j8, they were just buying a gift for their friend. i was talking shit. so i'm sorry. reallyy sorry. i'm trying to clear the air. THEY WERE NOT DOING ANYTHING. I WAS TALKING SHIT. AND NOW I KNOW I FUCKED UP. BAD. so again, i'm really sorry. please don't talk about it anymore.


fairytales are beautiful lies; [posted at 12:15 PM]
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Sunday, August 12, 2007

posting again. even though i'm chionging the geog assignment now. sigh. i'm really afraid for this cct week. even though they aren't my weaker subjects, but i really need this as well as the eoys to pull up my marks. i don't know what i'll do if i'm held back. sigh.

routine sunday, went to church, then went to raffles town club for lunch. had some big argument with my dad, who later gave me some shit on attitude. don't want to talk about it. sigh. got a new watch though, cos my addidas watch's strap broke off. (: bought earphones from joshua too yesterday, for 15 bucks. bragain. (: buttttt, shit. my k5 cracked. right in the middle. fuck. at least it still works, but there's a hole damn near the touchpad. if it breaks further... it'll be practically useless. sigh.

did alot of blogthings quizzes this afternoon, did some with darrell as well. (: yeah was really bored. zzz. i'm addicted to gwen stefani's 4 in the morning. here are the lyrics:

waking up to find another day
the moon got lost again last night
but now the sun has finally had its say
i guess i feel alright
but it hurts when i think
When i let it sink in
it's all over me
i'm lying here in the dark
i'm watching you sleep, it hurts a lot

and all i know is
you've got to give me everything
nothing less cause
you know i give you all of me
i give you everything that i am
i'm handin' over everything that i've got
cos i wanna have a really true love
don't ever wanna have to go & give you up
stay up till four in the morning
and the tears are pouring
and i want to make it worth the fight
what have we been doing for all this time?
baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right

all i wanted was to know i'm safe
don't want to lose the love i've found
remember when you said that you would change
don't let me down
it's not fair how you are
i can't be complete, can you give me more?

and all i know is
you've got to give me everything
nothing less cause
you know i give you all of me
i give you everything that i am
i'm handin' over everything that i've got
cos i wanna have a really true love
don't ever wanna have to go & give you up
stay up till four in the morning
and the tears are pouring
and i want to make it worth the fight
what have we been doing for all this time?
baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right


oh please, you know what i need
save all your love up for me
we can't escape the love
give me everything that you have

and all i know is
you've got to give me everything
nothing less cause
you know i give you all of me
i give you everything that i am
i'm handin' over everything that i've got
cos i wanna have a really true love
don't ever wanna have to go & give you up
stay up till four in the morning
and the tears are pouring
and i want to make it worth the fight
what have we been doing for all this time?
baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right


give you everything
give you all of me

4 in the morning by Gwen Stefani

nothing else but you would do. i don't ever want to give you up. just fall into my arms, and everything will be alright.

let's take a shot at true love. just this once.


fairytales are beautiful lies; [posted at 11:15 PM]
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-- About me ;

PERSONAL INFO
calvin khor
14
15.06.93
raffles institution
1L'06/2L'07
add me on msn at locked.emotions@hotmail.com (:
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LIKES
friends
using the com
soccer
music
other random stuff
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DISLIKES
homework [though it's close to a hate]
tests [almost a hate as well]
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LOVES
she's the one
true love ♥
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HATES
naggers
liars
bitches
bastards
hypocrites
hating; and being hated
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OFTEN FOUND
stoning
slacking [slackers ftw!(:]
chatting
emo-ing [though less nowadays]
dreaming of her


The Past ;

August 2007
September 2007
Exits ;

aqid
brandon
darrell loh
daryl tiong
david
dewin
guan wei
illiana
jerry
jey-sng
jiayu
joshua suwe
kai lin
kathleen
louisa
miin
natalia
nicole
rachel
richard
ryan tan
sally
shien hian
zachary


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